Tuesday, April 30, 2013

When it rains, it pours...but at the end of the day at least I'm alive

So as it seems to be a them in my life. When one thing doesn't work or something happens everything else seems to follow suit. Today is no different, but I how I handle it will be.
Yesterday as I tried to post a new entry my computer decided it didn't feel like working, it's decided to let me still use the Internet and type, but not edit or post anything, go figure. Since that is mainly the only two things I use it for. My phone, well it's decided to only selectively work, maybe it'll ring, or load the Internet. Maybe it won't. My puppy who's thank goodness up until the past couple days has been in good health, gave me a good scare and I spent the day at the animal hospital. My therapist phone also decided not to work, so up until today I hadn't been able to leave her a voicemail and make an appointment.
Well world, I'm going to throw you a curve ball. You can try to stop me, but I'm going to put a up a good fight. I've had to come to terms with the fact that my life is anything but ordinary or easy. That things rarely go the way I want them to or need them to. I don't know if its just the way I've dealt with the obstacles put before me, or if its just more than average the amount of obstacles put before me. In any case, I can't change the past or fix all the issues at hand today. But I can change the way I deal with it all. A couple months ago I may have dealt with it differently than I am now. Throwing my own pity party and wanting to just give up and run away. Anyone who's tried this can most likely attest to the fact that it doesn't nor will it ever work.
So at the end of the day as I write this I can say with a smile and an affirmative positive outlook on it all. That I am not going to be throwing myself a pity party or attempting to just run away. I'm going to end with all that I do have. I have an apartment that I got to go home to. I have a puppy who loves me and is starting to perk up/feel better. I have a somewhat working phone. I have an appointment with my therapist. I have food to eat for dinner. And I have family and friends whom I love and love me. So I hope that tomorrow brings better luck and if it doesn't I will conquer tomorrow when it comes.

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